When will then be now?

Then is now. I’ve successfully made it through most of the pain, I can now go all night at home while other things are happening elsewhere without pain in my heart. All that is there now is sorrow. I think that is an improvement. I’ve let go, I had no choice, it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Such a waste. What we had was amazing, it wasn’t perfect, but without giving up and working on communication, it may have been a life long adventure. Now I’m starting over and I have no idea what to do with myself. Alone in the world and no one to rely on. I will make it. I found my inner strength. I didn’t want to, but I did.

I’m focusing on my Serenity.