Albie’s blog

The loneliness has gotten to a point to where it’s painful. I had hoped it would be better after Christmas, but that same emptiness is there and the feeling of hopelessness is growing. Spending Christmas week alone and feeling like I have nothing to offer anyone anymore is a bummer. I just feel like giving up all over again. Best wishes, Albie

There isn’t even anyone left to tell that there isn’t anyone left.

As far as I can tell there is no happily ever after. That’s just something a writer made up a long time ago because they were done telling their story. I enjoy my me time no matter how unwilling I am to have it. The world drags me kicking and screaming into it half of every week. It is a fact that this is what life is now. Eighty-four hours I have to fill every week. I sleep, I work, I eat, I clean, I play Mr fix it, and there is still so much more time until I get my Serenity back. I’ve read books, I write, I work…

I think I may be done with relationships. It’s like getting an extra full-time job, without pay, constantly being in trouble and told I’m not good enough. Also everywhere you go everything costs twice as much. I think I’ve reached that point in life where I’m jaded or just smartened up. I believed in love, I believed in marriage. I’m not sure anymore. I wouldn’t change the past, even my biggest mistakes and regrets have lead me to who I am today and the family I have. I really couldn’t be happier considering my situation. A huge weight has been removed from my shoulders. To put it another way, no,…