Love. It’s what we want when we don’t have it. It’s what we idealize in our thoughts during the unbearable loneliness. It’s what we hope to find, don’t feel worthy of, and sometimes think we find. It is something we give freely yet it can be ripped away by another. If it can be stolen, was it ever real to begin with? I only know how I felt, why another would pretend is beyond my understanding. We place our personalities into someone else to fill in the unknown gaps. We do this for celebrities, friends, gods, and those we love. Do people change or is it more a matter of finding more…
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6am at the oasis
I discovered virtual reality last night. Armed with VR goggles that my iPhone fit in and EarPods I ventured into the web to explore all VR an entry-level person could. I walked on the moon with its last manned mission in the original NASA program, I went on a roller coaster at Six Flags Great Adventure in NJ, I did some hiking, looked around a tropical island, and back at the hotel I enjoyed a swim. I’m really intrigued by the technology and surprised I haven’t ventured into it before. My inspiration was to see how far we are for the experience portrayed in Ready Player One (2018). It sent me…
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It’s late. Come back tomorrow.
I had a nightmare that the people I bought the house from finally came to pick up their furniture while I was trying to get Serenity to sleep. They were going all through our stuff and I kept explaining to them that was ten years ago. I knew it wasn’t real, because there was a spiral staircase in one of the shots of the dream, there are no stairs in this part of Florida.
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Again again
I feel a little better now that I have my blog back again again. It’s not easy to be without a creative or personal outlet. I can and do post things on my social media, but when I share the true me and not always the best side forward some people think I’m complaining or looking for sympathy. But life is full of both positives like hearts and diamonds, and negatives like aces. That’s not always easy to deal with. So when I post things on social media like poetry, I know as many people see it as they do my photo of dinner, but the casual Albie fan doesn’t…
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Only one toy
I was heading out to the store to pick up my insulin today and I asked Renny what she wanted from the store. I always ask her because she doesn’t drive yet. She said something American Girl Doll and a lego set. I told her I’ll only get her one toy and she had to decide. She thought for a second and said “An American Girl LEGO set then” she is very smart.
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Kiss
To be kissed. The moment when want becomes need. When two energies touch for the first time. When time slows and nothing else matters. When hunger and satisfaction coexist. The longing and loneliness are forgotten and relegated to the past, when there is no future and we know why we are here. -Albie
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Watching Sherlock Gnomes with Serenity at Marquee Coralwood 10 Cinemas.
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Dear Janeane Garofalo
Dear Janeane Garofalo, I had that dream again. The one where I’m a truck driver hauling big freshly cut down trees from a culdesac. Turns out this time there was a hold up receiving the loads.I had to go inside, it looked like Collingswood flea market on the inside. The business was family owned and a woman who I had not met before was in charge. She told all of us drivers that we had to compete for our spot in line. A race was set up, it had multiple laps around the inside parkour style while eating amazing race style while running. I did not win the race, I…
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And isn’t it ironic
Sick day. I spent the morning in bed until Ren’s mom dropped Serenity off before her doctor appointment. Turns out H has a sinus infection �? This cold has kicked all our asses. Renny still has the sniffles �? I spent most of the day playing stuffed animals and teaching Renny card tricks. The house is a mess, I just don’t feel well enough today. Serenity wanted The Creature from the Black Lagoon to be a bad guy and have Captain Jake beat him up, I used that as an opportunity to teach her about peace. I explained the Creature was a nice guy, had a family too, and just…
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A cute bronchitis
Last night I felt so sick I thought maybe this cold was more like the flu. Whatever it is I needed to go to the doctor. As soon as I woke up I called and got an appointment. For 3 pm and went back to sleep. Renny was a very good girl today, taking care of me and helping her grandma. I slept in little slices, just was totally down for the count. Around 1:30 it was out of bed, showers and off to drop off Renny before my appointment. Turned out I have acute bronchitis and possibly pneumonia. The doctor prescribed antibiotics, Mucinex, and an X-Ray. I went for…
