I think I may be done with relationships. It’s like getting an extra full-time job, without pay, constantly being in trouble and told I’m not good enough. Also everywhere you go everything costs twice as much.
I think I’ve reached that point in life where I’m jaded or just smartened up.
I believed in love, I believed in marriage. I’m not sure anymore.
I wouldn’t change the past, even my biggest mistakes and regrets have lead me to who I am today and the family I have.
I really couldn’t be happier considering my situation.
A huge weight has been removed from my shoulders.
To put it another way, no, I didn’t dodge a bullet, but it was a through and through, albeit a very slow and agonizing through and through.
If you can’t trust your life partner, who can you really trust? At this point, I would say no one.
It would be nice to have a friend that is easy on the eyes and someone who could take care of me when needed, but I really feel I’ve already done the work of building a life only to have it ripped away from me.
Building a marriage is as difficult as building a house by hand, but in this case, the house could decide to leave at any time for what somehow unfathomably appears as greener grass.
I have a few friends that have been in this frame of mind for a few years and I didn’t really understand until now.
I really don’t know where to go from here. It could be bunnies.